What do you do when you have everything you always wanted?....only now that you have it...it doesnt seem as glamorous as you thought it was going to be? theres alot more...pot holes and speed bumps then you were expecting.
I've tried everything i can, i've put myself in positions i never wanted to be in, I've learned to change alot of things about me, i've learned to put others in front of myself and the happiness of those i love before my own...and yet...it doesnt seem to be enough. My change and hard work has seem to have gone un-noticed. Its heartbreaking and disappointing but...what really can be done? I just finished pouring my heart out about how other people had changed and how it was heartbreaking it was to see someone who was strong be so different...when now that i am evaluating my own situation...i have let myself down. I have let some foot prints be put on my back and i dont know why. I dont know why i let someone run me down. I used to pride myself on standing strong and ive let some of that go. "comprise" is what ive been told, that was suppose to be the key to all this...and yet...it seems that im the only one who's been giving any compromise. I've giving everything i can..and i have nothing left, except for a heart that seems to be crumbling slowly. Promises had been made and others have been broken...but i guess in the end all that matters is that i was the full who fell for them.
No comments:
Post a Comment