Bitter/Sweet

It's been a year since I've seen your smile,
And here we stand, across the room from each other.

My heart races, My palms sweat,
My stomach starts to knot.

Have things changed? Have you changed?
Do are hearts still fit together?

As I walk towards you my is heart racing,
My steps slow down.

And there ...In front of me..
The time stops, everything freezes...

She's beautiful, this women,
who has stolen your heart.

The reason for all your amazing smiles,
the reason that fire still burns inside your eyes,

I put a brave face on as my heart starts to crack,
I continue my steps towards you.

Because I'd rather see you smile then be,
The reason why your tears fall at night.

Sugar Coated B.S

What is one more lie?
You were never a fan of the truth.

Sugar coated bullshit,
That broke my heart.

How can I love to be around you,
Yet hate everything that makes you exactly who you are?

So many smiles, so many laughs,
Yet so many tears, so many disappointments.

I wanna let you go,
but i dont know how.

Beautifully Imperfect

Can't you see that I'm not perfect?
Don't you understand that I'm just me?

I may be just a simple girl to you,
Nothing special or unique.

But I like me just as I am,
I realize it is more than enough.

And although I may not be perfect,
I am perfect for someone.

Burning Sun

It was written in the stars that warm august night.
That fate would finally bring me something to make my life right.

All my life i wondered if I looked in every corner, every hole, every place,
I could fill that empty space.

Looking for that missing piece,
That would finally show me exactly who I was.

I walked in that room and there, Shinning as bright as the sun could burn.
There it was, my answer, my missing piece, ................Me

From that moment on exposing my true identity to the world,
Daring to be exactly what i imagined.

Not afraid to be hurt because i knew,
That now my heart was safe.

Locked away in a chamber where no key fit,
And a guard stood armed.

I could now be free to love every moment,
Because now...I can truly say....I am me.

And I owe it to that warm august night,
For allowing the sun to shine so bright.

Careless You....

I hate you for being so careless with my heart, You knew it was easily broken.

I let my guard down and let you in,
This place in my heart No one had ever been to.

All you did was go in and tare it up from the inside out. Leaving nothing but the the broken pieces behind.

But i'll just keep waiting because someday

Someone will come into my life and put back the pieces you broke apart.


So i'll sit here in this room alone and one day that person will come to and stitch up my heart and I promise you'll think back and say "she was the best i never had"

Lets NOT go off roading!...

Someone i know recently said "life is like driving on the freeway" sometimes we hit these bumps in the road but we always manage to get past them and reach our destination. Can i say i agree with this analogy? Not really. I thought a lot this weekend about what this person had said and the things i had been through in my life and i came up with my own twist on his analogy. We are all driving down the freeway, the difference is some of us choose to exit the freeway and go off-roading. We then choose to complain about the bumps in the road that we are some what at fault for happening. We make the decision to take the hard more "adventures" road instead of sticking to a more smooth sailing trip. We then dwell on the hardships putting ourselves in this "meh" emotionless rut we cant seem to pull ourselves out of. When in reality we have done this to ourselves, so we really have no right to complain about what is happening. We can exit the freeway and off road our way to our happy ending making ourselves feel like shit along the way...or...we can choose to stay on the freeway, put your best friend in the front seat of your car, blaring the music as load as it will go and just enjoy the ride. Embracing the potholes here and there because they help shape who we will become in the end, but never letting it stop us or bring us down. Because in the end the bigger picture is much more beautiful then the grey off roading we sometimes choose to see. 

Sitting, Wishing, Waiting....

Have you ever thought about the whole "everyone has a soul mate" thing?
I have and it doesn't really make sense to me.... Do i believe in love of course, do i believe that for every person there is someone for them? Not really. I think that everyone is entitled to 3 great loves in life. Some are lucky enough to end up with one of or thee great love of there life. And some of us spend are whole lives waiting for the unicorn to show up at are door steps but they never do. For those who dont find the "one" they always find someone who's gonna let them forget about the fairytale ending we always want and enjoy what we have with who we have. Not exactly what we dreamed up growing up but like they say "can't always get what you want".