Since i last confessed myself on here.
I cant stop thinking about a love i used to know. We have always been in touch since we met. We have never been MIA from each others lives and i feel that i have lost him. I miss him, i miss his love, i miss the warmth i felt when with him. I wish i could have it all back. i find myself just day dreaming about the past. My reality is so hard to deal with some days that day dreaming is my only escape and my only way of making it threw the day. I am grateful for the life that i have, i am grateful for those in my life and all that i have gained over time. But there are days were its just not enough. I feel so lost, so incomplete, so unhappy. And its not to say that if i had this love back everything would magically fix itself. But it is one of those things that i will always wonder what my life would be like had i take a different route. And i feel so guilty for that. i feel so guilty for even letting it cross my mind. But what can i do? Let it go? forget about it? or take it for what it is? a lesson, a glimpse of what love truly is, unconditional, forgiving, selfless, forever. I guess i should just be grateful that i got to have it all, regardless of time. I just wish it hadnt gone away.
