Having recently returned to this place i called home for 20 years...its hard to admit to myself that life as i left it...has changed. The buildings...the streets...the faces. But whats changed the most...the hearts to those faces. Ive realized that the friends i left behind have become strangers. and as hard as it is for me to admit that...i think i just finally had to say it out loud. I tried so hard to hold on to my past and to keep things the way they were. I wanted to push pause on my city life and just push play when i returned. Life just doesnt work that way, as much as we think are lives are so "movie like" they just arent. I went out with some familiar and not so familiar faces only to find that they arent what i remembered them to be. Some had changed so much it was somewhat heart breaking to see. I guess its just hard to watch someone who once had so much heart and strength...look so...lost? weaken? confused? I tried to search deep for the smallest shred of the old face but nothing. I sat there and realized that my life had changed so much over the last year...but so had everyone elses. I realized that we had all grown apart. we had all become strangers but there really wasnt any one person to blame. I just wish that some of those faces would realize that they have so much to offer the world...and at this time...are selling themselves short.
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