You win...

I did everything i could to keep your toxic ways from effecting my life and yet i could not resist. I wasn't strong enough to stand by my beliefs and what i felt was right and fair. Now here i am trapped in this nightmare i cant seem to escape. Im struggling to reach the surface for air. But you keep pulling me down and are making it impossible. How someone can be poisonous to everyone around them including themselves is beyond me. How anyone could ignore such immaturity, irresponsibility, and evil is beyond on me. But some how those around you have found a way to do so. They have chosen to sit in the dark and ignore the way you are. Me...i tried to fight it...and all that got me was a world of people talking shit and putting me down. Never in my life have i felt so hated and disliked. Never in my life have i meet people so evil and disrespectful....but in the end...the dummy was me. It was i who finally caved into your toxic ways. I am so exhausted i can not continue to fight you alone.So you win. You get what you want, your childish hissy fits have finally gotten you what you want. I wave my white flag and surrender. I will not fight you and the world. I just cant. I hope someday when your sitting alone and bitter that you realize you did this to yourself. You made it impossible for people to get along with you. You made your world so toxic and evil no one could stand to be around you, not even those who are bound to you by blood. I only pray that someday...you get everything you've dished out...that some day you realize what an asshole you are to the world that you cant bare to look yourself in the mirror. That you feel what everyone around you feels. That the hate you dished out someday consumes you. Prepare yourself for the pain you have coming to your way. Karma is truly a bitch...and she never forgives...let alone forgets.