Skeletons in the closet...

I dont understand why i cant seem to let go of the fact that this person is in your life...i know that im your number one and that you dont want to be with anyone else besides me and yet i cant shake this feeling. Every time you phone buzzes i know its her. Every time it lights up at 2 am...i know its her. when we have bad days i know its her that you run to. I wish you could see and feel how i feel about this. i wish you could just try and understand where im coming from. You have a past with this girl and there used to be shared feelings. its hard for me to believe that those feelings are no longer there. its hard for me to believe that after all these years theres not a place for her in your heart. she was and is your best friend. she was your everything. you woke up to her and fell asleep to her...so after all that how can i believe that shes not still on your mind, how can i believe that shes not still in your heart. or that you dont think of her often...i want these feelings of doubt to go away and i want us to be happy but i dont know to make that happen. I ask you to stop talking to her and then your sad and depressed because shes gone. but if i let you speak to her then all it does is kill me....and now...after nearly 2 years...your out with her. and the only thing running through my mind...is that when you see her...all those feelings of love and happiness are gonna come rushing back at you and your going to realize your making a mistake by being with me. i just pray that when you come home your heart will still be mine...our future will still be ours...and we'll still be forever.