stary night

i used to lay awake at night starring at these shinning stars, wishing for you to come into my life and give me what i had only dreamed of. I wanted that unconditional love, i wanted passion, friendship, companionship and for some reason..only you could give it to me just as i wanted. It was as if all my flaws had been transformed into the things you loved because you understood that they made me who i was. you embraced all the things that people ran from and i couldnt understand why. i begged for answers and asked why? why me? why not someone more (fill in the blank) for so long i couldnt see what you saw. and at times it started to break us apart. its difficult loving someone enough for the both sides. its hard to love someone who doesnt understand why or doesnt love themselves. but you did. i dont know how but you did. you loved me more then i could love myself. you loved me more then anyone else ever had. It was big, in your face, loud, forever, pinky promise love. it consumed every part of me and my life. I still try and figure out how it is that i got so lucky to find someone so perfect for me. But i am grateful for you everyday. because you are my best friend, my heart, my rock, my everything.